Ultrasound

Dr. Trolice apologized for nothing happening last month.  He couldn't find my left ovary during the ultrasound.  He found my right ovary no problem and there were lots of follicles on it.  My lining went from a 12 down to a 2, probably because I'm on my period.  He prescibed Clomid for me again, this time 100 mg as well as an estrogen suppository.  I'm supposed to check for ovulation while we are on vacation.  Guess how that will work out.  Publix wouldn't cover the Clomid so that cost another $45, on top of the $150 I spent last month on presciptions.  The HCG shot will cost me $100 in a few weeks.  I'm enjoying a nice glass of wine tonight since I deserve it.  Might be a while before I can drink again.  Still haven't gotten the pillow I ordered on eBay a few weeks ago.  Ticks me off.

Awaiting the Ultrasound

Super nervous about the cycle day 3 ultrasound tomorrow.  What will it show?  Will I have any follicles?  If so, what will be the sizes?  If I don't have any, why and will this be a problem?  I don't know if Dr. Trolice will up my Clomid or if another round of 50 will do.  Guess I'll just have to wait for tomorrow.  I hope they run on time since Casey will be there by herself.  I mailed out the appeal letter to Medco today since they didn't pay for the HCG shot and the progesterone suppositories.  They better change their minds.  Don't they know they're dealing with a very hormonal woman!!!

Spotting Continues

Light pink and brownish.  And the wait is killing me!  I peed on a stick when I got home, and of course it was negative.  Why can't I just wait until Friday for the beta and the ultrasound?  I still have some cramping and my boobs are sore too.  I felt a pinch and a dull ache on my right side earlier at work.  I hope this is it!!

Spotting

Last night I was exhausted after such a busy weekend.  I laid down shortly after putting Avery to bed.  I started feeling the dull ache again on my left side.  It lasted for awhile this time.  This morning I had no appetite, but forced myself to eat anyway.  I'm working out of the Winter Park office this morning and my stomach feels a little queasy so I went to the restroom and I'm SPOTTING.  So disappointing!!  I know I shouldn't expect anything different, but I was really hoping the Clomid and HCG shot would work this time.  Maybe this is God's way of telling me that he didn't want me going on an airplane pregnant.  I have a lot of people praying for me so I can't give up hope.  I know how important this is to Chad, and as much as I'm not looking forward to another round of hormones, I'll do whatever it takes to make this work.

The Weekend to Conceive??

So was this past weekend the weekend to remember? I sure hope so. We did everything we were supposed to do to make it happen. Sunday night I started the suppositories. They aren't as bad as I expected them to be. When I called the pharmasist this afternoon to ask him what to do if I am pregnant and leaving on this trip in a few weeks, he said he could give me a cooler pack. He didn't think flying and the change in barometric pressure would be a good idea though. I wish I had some of the symptoms. Even just one little thing to set my mind at ease. I am a little tired, but that is one of the side effects of the progesterone. I ordered some Preseed online and I won an auction on EBay for a conceiving pillow just in case. I'm still determined to make this work.

HCG Shot

Yesterday I went back to see Dr. Trolice after taking the Clomid Dr. Crider prescribed for me. I feel like I need a coach and Dr. Crider's practice is just too busy for that. I wasn't getting anywhere using the OPK's and I've heard that sometimes women ovulate late on it. He was impressed by my blood work Dr. Smolen ordered and could tell that I had lost more weight. He had my blood drawn to check progesterone level and he also did an ultrasound to see if I've ovulated. According to the ultrasound I hadn't ovulated but my lining looked good (12) and he could see both ovaries. He also saw 1 follicle (size 25) which was a little mis-shapen. I got a call from Amy this morning that my progesterone came back at 0.9 which is negative for ovulation. I went in for an HCG shot in the stomach and picked up progesterone suppositories. This will help me ovulate within 36 hours. Chad will be a lucky man for a few days :) Sunday I start the suppositories and then the hard part begins. WAITING. I'm supposed to take a home pregnancy test on December 20th, one day before Chad's 34th birthday. So either way, I'll know something while we're on vacation. What a gift from God that would be on his own birthday, Christmas Day! I continue to research what a follicle size 25 means, what a mis-shaped follicle means, etc and it just freaks me out. From what I've read having only 1 follicle is probably not a good thing, I should have more especially since I just took Clomid. Also, having a follicle size of 25 isn't good because it probably isn't viable, it's more than likely just a cyst. It should be around 18mm. This is all in God's hands, so it really doesn't matter what I read. If this is truly meant to be (this cycle anyway) then it will happen. I have to trust that. At least now my Mom knows, and since she's been through all this before, it helps talking to her about this. I'm so glad I told her too since I felt like I was hiding something from her.