Long Weekend

So the last time I posted on the 8th, I saw a little pink blood. Well, on Friday morning I started my period. I cancelled my blood test for that morning. Chad didn't understand what was going on and was frustrated and yelling. I wasn't feeling good so he took Avery to school and I fell back asleep until my boss called at 10 and woke me up. I was disappointed and yet relieved because I was tired of obsessing over it. Amy called me back later that afternoon and told me to start using the ovulation prediction kit on cycle day 9 which is this Friday. We will be in Georgia, but it shouldn't be that big of a deal. I haven't eaten well in a while and I've even forgotten to take my medicine a few times. I feel like I'm slipping back to my previous ways again, but I have to remain positive and stay focused. It gets harder for me around this time of the year because of the trips we take, people we visit, and all of the goodies like candy and pumpkin pie. This weekend I know I'll be drinking a lot of wine with Natalie too. Why does my weight issue always have to get in the way of everything!!

More Blood

I'm still seeing a blood on my panty liner, more than yesterday which really worries me. Yesterday I felt yucky, had no appetite and when I got home I had to lay down. I was tired and then got the chills. This morning I woke up and felt great until lunch. I had baked chicken, roasted potatoes and corn and within 15 minutes I had instant diarrehea. Now I'm hot and hungry again. I can't wait for tomorrow's blood test. If it's positive it will change my life forever. If it's negative I know I will be devasted! This will be a long night of waiting. If anyone out there cares and is reading this, please, please pray for me.

Pink Blood

I haven't felt right all day today. I chalked it up to lack of sleep since Camilo texted me at 4 am and I couldn't fall asleep after that. This morning when I went to the bathroom and I wiped, I saw pink on the toilet paper. I totally freaked out! I'd read about implantation and how it's normal to see it, as long as it doesn't turn into a full blown period but I called Michelle anyway. She told me that Dr. Trolice agreed with her and that last Friday was just too early too test and to test again either Friday or Monday. I told her what I'd seen and she told me that if I do see more than just pink to call her immediately. Great, just one more thing for me to worry about. I just need to let go and let God. This is all in his hands, so I just have to continue to pray that I'm pregnant and that everything will be okay. Hopefully this is implantation and not a period and that if I am pregnant, the beta will show positive on Friday. I'm getting more and more excited as time goes on. What better birthday gift can I give my Mom in a few weeks than the news she will be a Grandma again!

Last Night

I have had the backache from HELL the past couple of days. I even tried sleeping with a heating pad last night but it didn't help. I'm scared to take Tylenol so I'm trying to suffer through it as best as I can. I also feel crampy and a little bloated, even though that could be the Sonic corn dog and tater tots I ate last night :) My back hurts so bad I can't even get up to take Bailey for a walk. What in the world is going on? Twice yesterday and once already this morning I've even felt a little twinge of being nauseous. What can this mean?? I really wish Michelle would call me back!

Pregnancy Test Results

Ok, so Michelle scheduled me for 7 a.m. By 7:45 when I hadn't been called back and everyone coming in after me was, I got a little upset. Whatever! She called me back at 10:15 to tell me the results. The beta was negative and my progesterone had doubled from 6 to 12. So, no new news for right now. Since I'm not pregnant I should be starting my period, but my progesterone is increasing, not decreasing. So there is a good chance I still might be pregnant, but it's too soon to tell. She said she would discuss the results with Dr. Trolice and get back to me later.

Monday Morning

I broke down this afternoon and called Dr. Trolice's office. I know I'm impatient but I need to know something and soon. Michelle said she remembers telling me to take a home test on Sunday, but I told her the first 2 I've taken were negative. She said to come in at 7 am on Monday and they will draw blood. First is to check my progesterone which will determine if I'm going to start my period and the other is a beta which hopefully will come back that I'm pregnant. I get the results back in 2 hours. That will be the most agonizing 2 hours of my life. More devasting that saying I'm not pregnant will be the news that I was and miscarried, although since I know nothing about it, maybe I can't have miscarried so soon? I'm so sleep-deprived from this past week and sick with worry that I'm virtually brain dead and I'm sure Michelle is already sick of hearing from me . Normally a glass of red wine would be nice, but I'm not going to chance anything right now. . . .

Big Fat Negative

So I tossed and turned all night and didn't even fall asleep until 5 this morning wondering what the test would show. What else could it show but a BIG FAT NEGATIVE! Why do I do this to myself? I get my heart set on something to the point where anything else is so freakin disappointing. Now it will ruin my whole day. Chad still seems to think we need to wait until Sunday/Monday. I think he's wrong. We should know something by now! I'm so over this I don't want to even test anymore.

Still no period

Yep, hard to believe (not!) considering I only get them about twice a year or so. Not sure what to think. I think we're going to take another home test in the morning to see what it shows. I can't help obsessing over this. It's consuming my thoughts. I did more research today on weight loss and taking Metformin. It seems as if maybe both have contributed more than I thought. Metformin is also safe during pregnancy and is shown to help women with PCOS miscarry less. I cancelled my appointment with Winter Park OB/GYN in November and scheduled one at Loch Haven for October 22nd. They specialize in infertility, PCOS and high risk pregnancies. It's just for a wellness exam, but if I find out I'm pregnant before than, they'll just make it a prenatal visit instead. I also found out from the insurance company that I only have 1 co-pay of $15, and then the rest of my visits are free. How cool is that!! They still won't cover infertility which I think is totally unfair! At least tonight my focus will be on making a pumpkin-shaped cake for my potluck tomorrow.